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I am doing a presentation in my psychology class. We got to pick our own topic, and I picked panic disorder. I know a couple of the girls in my class have it, as well as I, so I really want to put my all into it. Heres the thing:

We have to present our topics "creatively." I do not know how to be creative with panic disorder. I thought it might be a cool idea to put together a compliation video of people who have the disorder explaining it (including me). If you want to be a part of my project I would really appreciate it. If any of you have a webcam and can just film a quick video answering the following questions:

1. What was your first panic attack like?
2. How often do you get them?
3. What is a typical panic attack like (take me through the steps)?
4. What usually causes them (if anything)?
&
5. How has it effected your life?

Send them to AntoniaMontanaFtw@yahoo.com

If you guys want I can post my end result here when it's done.
I'm sorry if this offended any of you guys.

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Lonesome parking ...
Hamburg, Germany
December 2009

So i have been on medial disability leave from work due to a bipolar mixed psychotic episode...since August.

during the six months or so before taking leave i had been having severe panic attacks every day, as well as paranoia (which brought on panic attacks). i was in a state of high anxiety all day long. add that anxiety/panic to auditory and visual hallucinations and constant extreme mood shifts... i am surprised i lasted as long as i did.

but, i am pretty stable now and i havent had a bad panic attack in a couple months. a couple mild ones but nothing i couldnt handle.

anyway i have committed myself to going back to work at the first of the year.

i am having MASSIVE panic attacks about this. i couldnt even make it through the office xmas party last friday. i was there for 90 minutes before i shut down completely.

i am just glad right now i still have Ativan, Klonopins, and Xanax around...however, they make me sleepy (except the Ativan, it's just about perfect for panic attacks but i dont have many left) and if i'm sleepy i cant do my job properly. if i am having panic attacks i cant do my job either.

oh i am sooooooooooooooooooooo conflicted about this,....... and just thinking about this makes me highly anxious.

i am so anxious that going abck will trigger another mixed episode, and if i have another i will be hospitalized. :( my husband might leave (he has threatened before). my kids will be traumatized. it will all fall to shit.

i am totally panicking about this right now.....

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